i'm back to post lerrh , wake up around 11 plus and prepare to go to work..reach workplace around 12 plus going to 1.. think quite alot today during work.. i don know why i suddenly have all those thoughts inside me..i actually go tell my colleague that i feel that me and him is fading away.. i don know how and wat to do.. i really feel so confuse..so wat if we are together and there is no love ther ? i really miss the days we had last two years.. the fotos we take really make me feel so sad cause all the memories just keep popping out.. we never take pictures anymore.. no more of him putting our picture in his fone.. no more holding of hands.. we are just like strangers.. so wat if i'm smiling everyday..so wat if ppl ask me i have a bf, i always say i have but the fact is that i have one who is just like a stranger to me..i care for him , i love him but to him its just nthg..i know he will never see my blog , he wont even peek into it and read how i feel inside here..whoever who ask me to stay happy with him , really sorry.. i try my best but he did not..i thought things will get better, but it seems to be worse..i know the long lost love will never ever be back again..cause there seems to be hatred in it..if one day the hatred is not forgotten , there wont be a lovely relationship..post till here bah.. hope tml will be a better day..bye !