i'm back to post , today is a great day .. my cousin is married and my family tree is getting bigger and bigger .. seems to be a lot of ppl joining into my family .. last two years was my 3rd auntie's daughter .. today is my 5th auntie's son .. who will be next ? not sure yet .. but soon there will be good news .. haha .. wake up early in the morning and rush down to my auntie's house at pasir ris as we are late lerrh .. reach there awhile jiu start tea ceremony .. actually tea ceremony is for the adult larrh , but i like to see the bride and groom serve tea for the elders .. haha .. i also got myself an ang bao from my cousin , well , is also worth going down to my auntie house .. haha .. went home around 1 plus .. reach home jiu fall asleep lerrh , i'm too tired .. around 5 plus jiu start preparing to attend their wedding dinner .. reach around 7 plus and all my cousins and relatives are having their nice cocktail while my family went in to the ballroom to settle down .. i did throw flowers when the wedding couple actually came into the ballroom .. its also the first time sitting so near to them .. haha .. woah! time really past so fast , around 11 plus the dinner is over and now i'm home posting .. tml will be working and not onli tml , it will be till wednesday .. i'm dead meat man .. my supervisor is killing me .. LOL .. but i'm not going to give up .. its just four days .. haha .. i have work even more days last time .. so chiong for the four days and i will have long time break .. MUAHAHA ! off i go .. TATA ..

♥ 11:59 PM

i'm back to post lerrh , today is VALENTINE'S DAY .. i'm now preparing to go out lerrh .. meeting hubby soon .. i'm going to enjoy myself today .. not going to think so much .. everything will say after today .. i really hope hubby will also be happy .. off i go .. byebye !

♥ 12:59 PM

woaH! apple is back..just came back from work , today sales is damn dead.. so little customers , and i'm almost bored to death.. and wat i will do is eat.. no wonder i become fatter and fatter.. lol .. this coming saturday will be valentine's day lerrh .. will be going out with baby .. things is not getting any better .. i really wan to sort things out so we can enjoy ourself on saturday .. but not sure baby will talk things out with me mah .. i really hope he will .. cause i don wan to lose him .. knowing everything will be better then hiding everything .. rite? mmm , tml will be working again but start onli at 2pm .. wanna charge my battery lerrh .. damn tired .. i don know how long both of us can last anymore , i really don know .. loving him i will say yes but he loving me , i'm not sure .. really don know how he thinks .. maybe we are just in a puppy love bah , not a true love .. i'm ready for a relationship but its different for him cause he's not ready .. maybe after he got his own life lerrh , i may consider to give him his freedom lerrh bah .. now he's still like a child to me , i wan to take care of him and love him for all i could .. no matter one day he leave me , i still will love him as before .. but i just wan him to be happy .. find his happiness bah .. alright , STOP ! -.-

Labels: loving a person will have to sacrifice, you know ? :)

♥ 1:28 AM

apple is back again , i'm now at hubby's house.. i have not mention anything to him cause i really don know wat to say to him , but all i know i really love him alot .. all i wan is him to stay by my side me jiu happy lerrh , although all the bad memories keep flasing back inside me but i'm okay with it .. hope this coming valentine's day will be a memorable day for both of us .. i wan him to be happy ..

Labels: i'm fine :)

♥ 7:29 PM

apple is back to post again , just reach home not long.. went out after work to make myself feel relax.. i feel so pack that everything is cropped in my heart , i wanna tell everything to him .. i wan him to know i love him lots , i really wan him to know that i need him .. haiis , why am i so miserable .. no one understands how i feel , even him .. after so many years together , but yet he still doesn know wat i wan .. now even his facebook picture is no longer our picture .. haiis .. are we really going to end like this ? we don have a chance anymore ? haiis , i feel so miserable , hubby , you understand ? i need your listening ears .. i wan you to understand how i feel .. so many years of sacrificing for you , shouldn it be the time you sacrifice abit just for me? haiis ..

Labels: apple is miserable :(

♥ 2:15 AM

back to post lerrh , today stayed home all day. finally now can go out and walk walk. after so many days of working finally i can relax for a day. going to get something for hubby as a gift , but still don know wat to buy. will go and see. mmm , did msg him but yet he still did not reply me. nvm bahs , monday will be finding him. will see how bahs. just wan to get out of my house now. i really hope he will forgive me , cause i really don wan to lose him and also that i don wan to make us become so cold, quite disappointed with him actually but i really cant do anything much anymore cause i got no idea wat to do. alright , hope he will be happy without me bah. i'm always alone when we quarrel cause i got no one to go to anymore. after buying his gift jiu will be home sweet home time. tml will be working again. will sleep early , and wake up early tml. hope that tml will be a better day for me although its the worse feeling for me when we quarrel. crying wont help to solve problems , but i still cry so much. everyday and every night. mmm , stupid of me rite? alright , off i go... ZoooMMMM..

Labels: moody as ever :(

♥ 5:00 PM

back to post lerrh , just finish working and reach home . mood is still the same old mood. have a tiff again. is it a relationship will always have quarrels? maybe bah. never contact one another now. he should be outside enjoying bah. haiis. just wan to make myself crop up with things so that i wont be thinking of our problems. all of this makes me feel so tired. why guys are always like that , they don treasure the girls when they have them but till the very last when the girl left them , then they wan the girl back. guys are so irritating , they don know wat a girl wan. haiis. girls are forever sensitive , if they are not. there wont be anymore jealousy and care. no matter how also wont change cause its our character. if the girl who happen to read my blog please understand that and get as far as possible from him. i believe that you also wont like that when i will actually go near to your bf. cause i believe you will get jealous and sensitive too. get it?

Labels: when then will you understand the pain inside me?

♥ 9:45 PM

back to post for today . went to work in the mornin .today work till 6 only . after work , went to hubby's house to find him . around 8 plus , we went down to buy my dinner . then pei him till 11plus then he use bicycle to bring me home . now wan to sleep lerrh . will be working tml . and it will be almost everyday for this month .

Labels: moody :(

♥ 11:45 PM

hey yo! new blogskin , new start and a new life..
hoping ther will be more excitements in my life..
still the same , loving my boy..
some ppls are not meant to be love..
hating childish act -.-

♥ 9:10 AM